Desperation - part 2

Chapter 5 – Desperation part 2

Lets talk a little more about desperation. Some other names for it are despair, hopelessness, despondency, fear, worry and several others. All of which are unpleasant to say the least. Once again I will say “been there done that” and my situation is no different than many others out here on the street. The details are different and the way we / I handle desperation differs as well. I, as did many others, hid behind alcohol and drugs then by running away from all that we had. Other people just ran away. More still just accepted their position and addictions.

For most of us out here the easy way is the way we deal with the desperation. We don’t necessarily think about it we just look for the easy path to ignore whatever we are feeling. Alcohol and drugs are just a temporary solution that only brings back the problems at a later time. Many of the so called professional homeless have accepted the situation and don’t do anything about those feelings. In fact we will just ignore them and self-medicate as often as we can. We just maintain a level of comfort that will allow us to function as a homeless person. The lying, stealing and other symptoms are just to help us get what we want.

With some the desperation is not so obvious, maybe it’s the way we were raised, maybe their addictions keep the despair covered up. No matter who we are the problems are real and for most of us out here on the street seem insurmountable.